Maybe its just me being the only child in the family, im not used to share the love of my parents with others..Everytime when both of them care more or even priase other children, Anger and jealousy filled me quickly. I began to give them attitude hopefully to catch their attention but they think im just being childish. I hope if only u quit both your work, if only you both spend more time on me giving the care i want, i could feel the love you both had for me. Sometime i even feel that, im not their child, i shouldn't be living in this family or even this world. Why should i come here to get all this negative feelings? why? I secretly weep deep in my heart for years, who knows?

After reading a post, i reflected on my life. I felt that im much blessed then his/her's. I should be glad and sastisfied and not complain on it. Overall we still have the love of our heaven father above, his love is more then we ever need. After knowing him, I believe those negative thoughts in the pass is gone. But however i feel that some part of my life is still unchange, knowing that you have forgiven and washed away our sins, i still break every promises that i've made, repeating the sins again and again, saying that i will change but i never. Everytime after i've sinned, there will be remorseful feeling inside me. It's really difficult to overcome, it's really difficult!

I wished to try again, i wish to give it a go again. Hopefully this time with the power of my everlasting god, his words, his promise, i am able to stop and change completely!! AMEN!

Look what i've been doing all this while:

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